Hey all. Sorry, I've mostly been posting on LJ lately. But! I come bearing Torchwood!fic. ♥


TITLE: Kiss Today Goodbye [Part 1]
AUTHOR: thescarletwoman
PAIRING: Jack Harkness/Ianto Jones
RATING: PG-13
SUMMARY: Some things aren't always what they seem and a little faith goes a long way.
WORD COUNT: ~2100
SPOILERS: Children of Earth; Trace Memory (mentioned in passing)
NOTES: Yes, another of the Fix-It fics. Thanks to flameish for the insanely quick beta, all remaining mistakes are my own. Also written for fanfic100, prompt "072. Fixed". For obvious reasons. ;^)

( Kiss Today Goodbye )

NYC utterly sucked. My cousin has officially turned into the 'Real Housewives of NYC'. And it's utterly disgusting. I never would have thought her capable of it. But apparently I was wrong.

Highlight of the trip was the dinner at Basso56 (even if it ended up costing $116 for dinner. wth) and going to this great piano bar called 'Don't Tell Mama'. Wherein, after being ignored for most of the night by eleven women, I managed to find the two british blokes in t he bar. Raise your hand if you're surprised. And yes, I'm still regretting not giving Leigh my email address. *sigh*

However, I WOULD like to know why I've met TWO brits in TWO different bars and BOTH of them are Liverpool fans. *sigh* And as soon as I hide behind my napkin, they always know where my loyalties lie. *loves her Red Devils*

AND in other news:

I got an invite code from dreamwidth today. I made my journal, mostly because I don't want anyone taking my username. I've had it for FAR too long. Not sure what I'm going to do, but I'm there. thescarletwoman. I've found some of you, I know. :D

Also, you know you like Doctor Who too much when? Every time you see the communities on Dreamwidth with the prefix of DW you think Who first. Oi.

I'm going to say this here as I went on a self-imposed hiatus for the past couple of weeks. I needed the time to clear my head. I will get to commenting to my last post. Those who did... thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. I don't know what I'd do without you and your support. ♥

And now! This month's daily_deviant fic! w00t!

Title: While the Cat's Away...
Author: thescarletwoman
Characters: Narcissa, Bellatrix
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: toys, incest, lingeire
Themes/kinks chosen: Adultery
Word Count: ~2100
Summary: Lucius may have his 'whatevers'... but Narcissa has her Bella.
Author's notes: It's been a while since I've had the chance to write femme and the theme fit it perfectly. Thanks to jateshi for the uberly speedy beta!

( ...the Mice Will Play )

I really need to remember to cross-post. *sigh*

You know... all I'd like is a break. Really. Though, I know better than to ask for that because with the way my luck is going, I'll end up breaking something tomorrow.

That cold that started the day before my LSATs? Degenerated into bronchitis. I've never felt worse in my entire bloody life. I sound like my own personal TB ward.

My fic muse is giving me the middle finger and I have deadlines and it's still giving me the whatfor. And I haven't gone to see my therapist in... well, longer than I realised before writing this up. I just feel so apathetic towards everything lately. There's drama in a couple of my games that I don't want to deal with and it could be the illness talking too.

I'm just feeling like I'm behind in things and am never going to catch up. And they're things I love doing/running... but things seem like mountains. And if I hide from them, they'll go away -- only I start feeling guilty that I'm letting people down. *sigh*

I guess I just want to be back in school and working towards something. Right now I feel so absolutely lost and without any purpose. Yes, I have my job at the Playhouse but it's only a year. I just feel like I'm a ship at sea and just bounding in place. I don't know what my future holds, any time I think I've found a decent guy to date he tends to turn out to be gay or a total douche. And no, I don't need to date to be happy but when one hits the age of 24 and has never had anything by way of a serious boyfriend? One starts getting depressed. And it's the 'what's wrong with me' demons.

I shouldn't start thinking at midnight. Because I get maudlin.

I hate this feeling. But I don't know how to get out of this rut either.

So.

Knowing this book is going to be like a train wreck, where one SHOULD look away... but can't...

Does Lia go and buy the book in hardcover. Even though she knows she really doesn't want to give any money to the franchise but for the simple fact that she has the other three in hardcover and therefore must have the complete set because she's a doofus like that.

and will also stop talking in the third person now

Of course... cleolinda brings the LULZ.

And I'm still wondering if that spoiler xpolmex heard is true or not...

Today (and really the past few days) have been very good days.

1. hp_monthly (on LJ). It's a monthly Lusty Month of May type thing. I'm helping out with archiving and the like, because I'm insanely anal and love doing those sorts of things. But it's a monthly fic challenge. AND -- if the first theme turns out to be Remus Lupin (like I'm crossing my fingers for), you can use all your LMoM fics over there!

You know you want to join. Doooeeeeit.

2. GOING TO NYC! And I MAY manage two times this summer. Extremely sad to see Sunday in the Park with George is closing at the end of June. Coincidentally, there's a bus trip from Erie to NYC on the closing weekend... and I"m on it. Mom bought me my ticket for a birthday present. Second row, balcony, centre stage. Rock on. Also... I'll be in NYC for 16 hours on the 28th of June. Not really sure what all is going on or what, but if anyone wants to meet up for lunch or something, that'd be aces!

The other NYC trip will be (if I can swing it) in July to see my imaginary boyfriend perform again. Waiting for single tickets to go on sale and hopefully there will still be tickets insanely close to the stage. Ralph... doing an hour of Beckett all by his lonesome. Liam Neeson will also be there performing Eh Joe and Ralph is doing First Love. Please keep your fingers crossed there will still be seats within the first three rows. After seeing him in Faith Healer I refuse to sit farther away than that. The man's an amazing actor, but it's all in the eyes and facial expressions.

I'll stop gushing.

3. Car window still working! Which is good because it's a nice 72° outside! Score.

Your turn! Need to get a vent off your chest? Have something to squee over? *points to comment button* tell me all about it!

Drive by posting. Will be catching up with everything later tonight. My week-long migraine seems to have FINALLY died down. Thank god. I was looking into lobotomizing myself just to get rid of the pain.

Good news though!

I have my car back and I don't have to do anything to the window! \o/ After speaking with our lawyer, he said my best course of action was to file a civil suit. Talked to the judge (who ended up being the wrong district justice to go to, but as my dad and he went to school and I went to school with his son, he was really candid in talking to us). And agreed that suing the dealership would be the best course of action.

Take my car to this glass repair place and they said there was nothing wrong. That the weather stripping had gotten kinked somehow, they fixed it and didn't even charge me for it! Now the window works perfectly, there's no grinding or anything.

I am a happy, happy Lia.

Work is now changing my schedule (oi) but it means more nights by myself which isn't necessarily a bad thing. While I don't trust to be on LJ or the like (at least, not yet *cough*) I can be on google sites. Which means writing. My muse seems to be coming back in FULL force. Not only with bunnies, but with ideas for LMoM (though I'll be getting help from you guys as I want to try 31 different pairings through the month). I know. Ambitious, right?

*squees some more about her baby being fixed!* *\o/*

Bullet Point No. 1:
*totally stealing the idea from avengangle*

Am driving into Cleveland this weekend for a band concert on April 12, 2008, at 7:30 P.M. at Franklin Circle Church (it's at the corner of Franklin and Fulton, in Ohio City [Cleveland]). Needing to invite people so if there's about 7 of you who could either say you'll be there or send regrets, that'd be aces. ♥

Bullet Point No. 2:
I see the ticket info for Equus is up. Is it sad that I notice the ticket info for the Lincoln Centre Summer Festival are also up and I'd rather spend my $300 bucks to see Ralph Fiennes and Liam Neeson (and one other guy whose name escapes me) in 3 different Beckett plays?

*whimper*

Bullet Point No. 3:
There's nothing here. I was just taught to have a minimum of three bullet points. No, wait, there IS something! Bunnies, please LEAVE me alone. I have snarry_games to finish. And rs_games to start. *headdesk*

This has just been... such a crap week. Scratch that, a crap year.

Seriously. Where's that restart button.

I'm actually really thankful I have a meeting with my therapist tomorrow to do some unloading. ♥ I appreciate all the offers to chat but there are times when in person is just... it's different. I've tried talking to my parents about Anj, but they just don't get it. I think it's a generational thing, really.

They see her as an acquaintance and several times when I've tried to talk to them about it, I get corrected when I refer to her as a friend. In their minds, because I never sat down and had coffee with her, she's not a 'true friend'. Did we exchange a boat-load of IMs? No. But we made a connection, and sometimes that's all that matters.

On top of that... my grandfather's in the hospital. Those of you who have been around here for a while know there's... not much love lost with him anymore. He's now speaking to us... it's been over a year since we exchanged words after he hung up on my mother after telling her twice to 'shut up'. How HE remembers it... he called THREE months ago and tried to tell mom that he fell and she wouldn't let him get a word in edgewise. Which is a total lie. But now he's ill and has been in and out of hospital for the past couple of weeks. I honestly don't know how I feel about this, but I see how it's tearing dad apart right now. He hates his father with a passion, yet he still is his father and my dad has to deal with all of this. On top of that, my uncle and the woman he cheated on my aunt with and married two years ago (her fifth, his fourth marriage) -- are now on the outs.

There's family stress. There's me not really being able to mourn the way I need to mourn.

This gets easier, right?

♥♥ in case I haven't told you guys lately -- I love you all. I honestly and truly do.

Just a note to say that sign-ups for hp_summersmut are open. Apparently I've failed lately at getting content to both journals. *sigh*

In any case, they're not just for LJ people -- I have sign ups in one place so I don't lose my mind (and more than I already have...). But go forth and sign up.

I know a lot of you guys are sitting fests out for whatever reason and I know the talk that's been going around that there are 'too many fests'. This is our third year running so it's not a new fest at all. Just a little food for thought, if you will. Hell, I'm sure someone will consider this wanky. *sigh*

In any case, off to work. Joy.

In my... not here-ness... I nearly forgot to post this here as well.

Can 2008 start over? preferably RIGHT now?

What is it this year? we're knocking out the musicologists one by one?

First Dr Hartzell and now Anj. For those who may not have heard, a truly amazing person was taken from us: anjenue (formerly rosesanguina was killed in a car accident last night. There's a community set up in her memory for people to leave thoughts and rememberances and found at we_love_you_anj. (the comm's on LJ)

My wish... if there are people you love, tell them. If there are those you should talk to more... don't put it off. Anj and I always said we'd talk more... and now it will never come to pass. I've lost two truly amazing people in my life within the span of a few short months. I'm a wreck. I have to go through my external haddrive and pull off all the music I've gotten from her over the years.

I'm reposting what I said in we_love_you_anj

Anj and I met several years ago, and I cannot remember if it was through playing together at the_leaky or if it was through fandom. But we were both music history majors. She getting her master's in ethnomusicology and I had just picked up my second major in undergrad in music history. I remember thinking how cool it was to actually meet someone who was interested in the same field I was.

One thing led to another and we began to talk a lot. Not every day, but we'd catch up now and then and I always cherished every one of our conversations. Between our love for all things RENT to music stuff... to what have you.

We always swore we'd talk more, but it never came about. Now, it's one of my biggest regrets.

We may not have been close but we were good friends. I still have the christmas card she sent me last year. The kind words she said... I think that's what I'll always remember is her kindness.

Anj... you were taken from us all far too soon.

To quote The West Wing... "The streets of heaven are too crowded with angels, but every time we think we have measured our capacity to meet a challenge, we look up and we're reminded that that capacity may well be limitless."

You will be missed. ♥

First of all: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

That's all I can say right now. I've been re-reading comments from you guys on my writing post and am... well, gobsmacked. You guys have seriously left me speechless. I didn't post that in seeking out pats on the back and I nearly did disable comments. But...

I'm without words. I'm slowly trying to form responses to you guys so they are coming. I just didn't want the weekend to come without saying thank you. It's been a really low couple of weeks for me and the encouragment... was exactly what I needed to hear.

So in short -- here's a massive thank you to the flist. ♥

In other news? I got the first good night's sleep in I don't know how long. melatonin=love. Seriously.

Also have a gig this weekend! Huzzah! and paying too but shhhhh. that's on the dl. The conductor flew in from Germany yesterday and worked with the little chamber ensemble for about an hour. It's a baroque piece (yay BW and their Bach love)... and the conductor complimented me not only on my playing but how excellent I was playing the music stylistically. Never thought I'd say this but... Thank you Dwight Oltman.

I have a massively long thank-you post that is forthcoming. But right now I just want to say thank you to you guys. This past week and a few days have been so very, very rough -- and I just want to thank you all for your support. I'm doing better and the memorial service was lovelyl

I'm still in mourning for him and I know I will be for a while. I just want to thank all of you for your support this past week. It absolutely means the world to me.

For those of you new to my journal -- no, it really isn't that depressing, I promise! In fact -- here's a bit of fun and friendly competition!

Support Team Phoenix!

Go Team Phoenix! So much better than Team Iguana Dragon. Really... a lizard?

And here we are again, on the cusp of a new year. All I have to say -- I hope to GOD that 2008 is better than 2007. I'm really getting tired of RL's constant obsession with continually kicking me in the proverbial balls. But as it is -- things are already looking up.

1. There might be a boy. Maybe. It's in the beginning stages and I'm not counting my chickens before they hatch -- but he's coming here for dinner on New Year's Day. So... maybe.

2. Have applied for a full-time (at last!) job working at the County Courthouse. So -- law stuff... on it's way. And also have a LSAT class starting towards the end of January.

3. Have made my peace with the theatre. Also had Almi actually TALK to me yesterday about Little Women. Well, the shocking thing was that she spoke to me in general as... the woman goes at lengths to avoid me. But basically said how good my callback was and what an amazing actor I am and how much emotion I put into my scenes and that I really should audition for the plays coming up. Which -- confirms my suspicion that I wasn't cast in LW because they wanted me in the pit. She also said my voice wasn't the strongest.
Me: That's because I'm not a soprano. Jo is in my range.
Her: Well, then maybe that's why you didn't sound strong as you're not used to really going for it up there.
Me: *headdesk*

4. Am sending in a CV to the Philharmonic and hopefully will get an audition. At least I can play there for a year-ish before going off to Law School.

Right now at 11am on December 31st, the New Year is looking to be a helluva lot better. And would look even BETTER if this three day migraine I've had would go the fuck away.

( Year-End Fic Wrap Up )

And I officially wrote more this year than I thought I did! Damn.

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe New Year's. See you back here in 2008 with a new year and hopefully a new outlook on life.

And I hope to god a better 2008. 2007, you sucked.

Alright, so I'm a bit late in posting this but ah well. It is at least posted.

If you would like to get a Christmas card from me, just fill out the poll. Even if I HAVE your address already, I'd appreciate it if you would fill it out to make my life a helluva lot easier. ♥

I have two card types this year. One is a pretty photography-type the other are very amusing ones sporting A Christmas Story. I'm fairly certain the photography ones are of the 'Seasons Greetings' variety. Can't remember with A Christmas Story.

So fill out the poll. Anyone can fill it out, but only I will see your responses. If you're really paranoid about your address, feel free to send me a line at thescarletwoman@livejournal.com.

♥♥ Happy Holidays everyone!

And as the little sign in Wal*Mart said today -- there's only 52 shopping days left until Christmas!

The post is here!

And if you do not want to go over to LJ for ANY reason, I'll be screening comments to this post. If you want a card, leave the following:

* Card Type: Pretty or Funny
* Generic 'Seasons Greetings' Card: yes/no
* Name
* Address
* City
* State/Province
* Zip/Postal Code
* Country
* If you want a drabble. I may not get one to everyone, but if I can-- prompt me! Any fandoms including HP, Good Omens or House.
* Your email if you want my address

So... wow. I want to move to DC. Seriously.

Surprisingly, all of my flights were decent and there were no delays in Detroit. I think this is the first time EVER that I didn't have any delays in Detroit. And best of all, Northwest didn't lose my luggage!

Got into DC around... 4ish and was picked up by the ever wonderful jateshi and got to see the box known as her car. Drove around to pick up stuff for dinner, then headed back to her place to crash.

Spent the majority of thursday driving around with Jate's mother and seeing a wonderful fabric store that made my mother weep. Thursday night was the National Symphony Orchestra. Oh. My. God. Erich Kunzel owns my soul. Completely and totally. Met up with wook77, janicechess and misterchess at the Kennedy Center and had dinner there at the KC Cafe -- which is done cafeteria style. I have to say it's hysterical to watch people wearing Dolce & Gabbana evening wear... and carrying trays around. Took us forever to find a seat too. But the concert was amazing. I was slightly disappointed in the concertmaster, but then again, I'm partial to violinist and Schindler's List too. Then the concert ends... and half the audience has gotten up when Erich announces there's one "Ditty" they didn't play. And launch into the Cantina song.

Friday was known as meet-up-day-o-doom wherein I made Jate drive all over the place to see people. Lunch was at this pretty Italian restaurant called Buon Appetitos with wook77 and chrome_animagus. The guys in the restaurant kept jokingly telling us to settle down. We were a bit rowdy though. *cough* Then that evening we went to Minerva which is this really awesome Indian eatery to have dinner with cruisedirector and apaulled. And went out for ice cream that NONE of us needed after that large of a meal.

Saturday was the touristy thing. Wandered around the Georgetown area which I have completely fallen in love with. It's like a little slice of London right here in the states. In other words, I need to get my ass into gear and start studying for the LSATs as I need that 170. *mutters* That evening, I got to meet the infamous Dinner Group. Blade Runner- The final cut was playing at one of the theatres so I got dragged to that. Movie wasn't bad and I did enjoy it. On the metro ride back to jate's I was told that they were keeping me.

And then Sunday was the trip home. So never expected it to take 40 minutes to get through security on a SUNDAY morning, but there you have it. Barely slept the night before as we wanted to watch The Reduced Shakespeare Company. Up at 6 am and by the time I got home, I kept falling asleep on the couch.

In other words... I had an absolute fucking blast in DC. And need to figure out how to a, go to school down there or b, when I can get back.